I want to approach atheism here in the absence of belief in God, period. It doesn’t mean I didn’t have a moral code growing up. I spoke in an earlier part about my grandparents. I followed as best as I could to be kind to people. But I didn’t have the DEEP compass they did. They never spoke of scripture to me, but it wasn’t ever very far from their hands in a bible. My grandmother on my paternal side turns 99 next month, and she is deeply religious.

These people grew up with suffering. First, the Great Depression. Then Hitler and World War 2. After World War 2, it seemed the Fourth Turning ended, and then led to the First Turning in the next cycle. What MAGA seems to want is that time after World War 2 in 1950s USA. Opponents want to frame this in a highly racist sense – pointing to the high levels of racism in the deep south in this country. People like myself – viewed this in the frame of “Leave it to Beaver” where we grew up seeing “Honey, I’m home!” as Ward Cleaver put his hat on the stand and his beautiful wife greeted him with a smile and a drink. For most of us – we saw this as a time of innocence. The “golly gee” time of a time where culture was beaming with hope of the future.

The fourth turning arrives via weak men. Corruption. Policies that favor the few. Taxes stripping wealth from its citizens and being re-deployed to cronies. Capitalism is not the problem. It’s that the guide rails and moral frameworks of Judeo Christian society eventually get replaced by the state. And with government, the more you feed it, the bigger it gets, the more power is consolidated, and the more moral decay happens. I point to the “Summer of Love” as one of the first genuine times I became fearful of the direction of the country. Seeing images of all of these major cities getting burned. No politicians arresting any of them, and high profile politicians offering to bail them out and pay their legal bills. I don’t want to kick a hornet’s nest here – anytime someone dies by the hands of police, it’s a tragedy, and his situation was made murky by the toxicology report that suggest he died as a result of drugs in his body. Or, it highly contributed. But I watched the TV as politicians were fomenting rioting. Supporting it. No one arrested. And – they were calling for “defunding the police”. At the same time, these people were demanding we hand over our firearms.

This, to me, cemented me in my position and turned me as hard MAGA as you can be.

But I was an atheist. I was confirmed in a UCC, but I never had any form of belief in God. A lot of my journey back to re-looking at this started with Charlie Kirk getting murdered. I saw myself as an atheist who was allied with Christians. I always had suspicion of deeply religious people, as it felt fake. I didn’t like how religious people tried to quote scripture to me. As a kid, I was told in Sunday school I must love God more than my parents. The layers of hypocrisy I had seen in my life convinced me that I needed more. I could use the teachings I learned, the examples of good people – and I could make my way in this world. But at 50, I have no sense of community. My nuclear family is all but gone from growing up, and most of my relatives have different lives far away. My in laws are 4.5 hours away. I work remote, and have no work friends. When I did have some work friends, it was 90 minutes away and I was their boss. So my community over the years has degraded.

But the Charlie Kirk thing hit me like a nuke. I started watching his videos, in depth – and I started to see someone I really admired. I came to find he was more of a spiritual champion of the right. Someone who could defend the right’s position, using God, but not being preachy. He often showed love and tolerance I could not wrap my mind around. He led by example. Was he perfect? No – I think he had a bad day once with Cenk from TYT. But overall, I was impressed with who he was as a human being. The left would start out – “but he didn’t go to college”. As if this was some sort of measure of a man.

In my atheist ways – I observed parallels between the state and religion. For example, if you fall on hard times – a church’s people and community can rally to help you. In the government realm, it’s a welfare check. In the church, you put money in a dish, with what you can afford, to help others. In the government, they seize your wealth to distribute – and if you do not pay, they imprison you. In religion, you have a law of God, and you are to live your eyes using God’s law. With government, there are more and more laws every day meant to restrict your speech, movement, ability to earn income, and if you do not listen to them, you go to jail. Our founders wanted as small of a government as possible, because they wanted to limit government power over you. Freedom of religion in the first amendment was meant to allow people to find their own spiritual communities, where the government would not interfere.

What you start to find, is that your church or synagogue or mosque are designed to create moral fabrics of society. The US – unlike many other nations, has had mostly all peaceful times with all of these religions existing under the same legal framework.

What you start to find in a lot of socialist/communist governments, is that the power and influence of religion is usurped by the government. These socialist governments then persecute people who are religious. The government’s power is thus the way of the land. The law. And – the morality is defined by them. And if you do not agree, the government now has the power to crush you like bugs. In the 1950s, McCarthyism was trying to hunt out communists living among us. Lists were created. People were watched. Hollywood stars were blackballed. What we have seen the last 20-30 years in this country is a move away from religion in Hollywood to secularism – and deferring Western culture to the power of the state. This is the same objective of the marxists after WW2 – to try and infiltrate all areas and walks of life – and to enter the entertainment industry to try and remove God from peoples’ lives. McCarthy has mostly been taught to me as an evil person through popular culture – but again, that was in the last 20-30 years.

People like myself dealt with some things at a young age I could not wrap my mind around. When I was around a year old, my uncle (not blood) killed my dad’s sister, then killed my 7 year old cousin Pammie, then killed himself. I had seen how small children were murdered around the world. Floods. Starvation. My OCD leaned into this stuff too much. I could not understand how a God I’m supposed to love should also be feared, and when bad things happened – I felt simpleton’s would just shrug and say “it’s God’s plan”. It felt like a fucking cop out. Not only could anyone give me a shred of evidence that God existed, but as even an 8 year old I started thinking – “they lied to me about Santa Claus to make me behave for presents. They lied to me about a fucking bunny shitting out Cadbury Cream eggs somehow bringing me a baseball bat. Now, they try and tell me there is a God so I behave. Fuck that”. At around the age of 12, when I was about the start confirmation, my dad’s best friend Ron was killed in a welding accident. I looked at him like an uncle, as my dad talked about him daily and we would be at hist house a lot, and he used to come and help weld my bike. This was around the same time when I found out about my Aunt Linda and cousin Pammy being murdered. I had a lot of anger. No just God would hurt people like this.

Around the same time, I was being told if I didn’t believe in God, I would go to Hell. More boogeyman stories to control me.

But at age 49, Charlie Kirk was murdered. And when I saw the thousands of people celebrating his death, it literally broke me. I was on the way to my yearly Poconos trip when it happened. I spent the entire time quiet. My friends were getting angry with me. I was supposed to be some performative happy fat clown, there to amuse them. Seeing all of these people celebrate his death – I could not process it. My friends have no idea how that shook me to my core, and put me on a different path.

I started to evaluate everything. I mean, everything. Below is a bit of how I had lived my life – with the absence of God. And it is the last part of this that also got me.

The last part talks about essentially our purpose. When you look at a secular life, your success is about money. Fortune. Being famous. How you attract mates in this lens is different than how you find a mate within religion.

In a secular world, “ask not what your country can do for you, but what you can do for your country” is where I feel we get our virtue.  I wanted to be a soldier from the time I was a child, and in 2019 I went through an interview process for a direct commissioned officer through US Cybercom.  Prior to that in college, I had started off wanting to be a police officer and an FBI agent.  I studied the law.  It became my moral code.  But the problem was then, as is now – I could not stomach the evil in this world.  My OCD does not stop thinking about how someone could put a baby in a microwave.  The sheer evil in this world I could not stomach. 

I wanted to give.  To help others.  But in a secular world, you learn in college that a cop doesn’t make a lot of money, the divorce rates are high, and you deal with the worst part of society every day.  I wanted a career where I could wake up, be Ward Cleaver, and the 2.5 kids with the white picket fence.  I switched to computers, as I had my first college class in BASIC at 11 years old at a local community college.  The pay was much better, and I have always been a nerd in the sense of future tech and futurism.  

My heart was broken too many times to count.  In high school, I had a deep crush on someone.  It ended badly with the friend zone, but this story is the same story of millions others.  I had been taught to revere women.  Treat them kindly.  I had spent time in a battered women’s shelter as a child, so I was always keenly aware of how men can hurt women – and I sought out to create a safe space for women.  In today’s day and age, what I felt was courting someone that I had intention to marry was known as simping.  My intent and heart were pure, but I didn’t understand anything about dating.  I had no moral framework to live by.  My parents divorced after my brother found out he was cheating on her, gave her the notes, and then my dad kicked my mom around the living room when I was 16.  My grandmother at the time disowned my brother for diming out my dad.  I was gone for a week at a national softball tournament for DeMolay where we got third – and at that event, one of the kids there was diddled by one of the men in charge, so that is a whole other Dr. Phil episode I could never process – because when I came home, I found out my dad and best friend did all of this….again.  A few weeks later, my dad came to a baseball game to watch me play, and I lost my shit at him in front of everyone.  No one knew what I was going through emotionally.  1 year earlier we had moved schools and I was shy and wasn’t close to many in HS.  So I had lost my best friend, lost my DeMolay friends, my grandmother destroyed my brother, my dad beat the fuck out of my mom, and I had lost all of the friends my whole life from when I moved to a new school. 

I had never written the above, anywhere.  But this is what happens to children when shit goes sideways.  I have OCD, and everything I was going through was a non-stop loop in my head, 24×7.  I threw myself into Trumpet.  I ran every day after school.  I played tackle football where I wanted to hurt kids.  I wrestled.  I took karate.  I served tennis balls for hours after every baseball practice as hard as I could until maybe 9PM at night.  I wanted to be anywhere but home, and wanted to numb myself from stopping what was going on in my head.  Food became a comfort.  God was the furthest thing from my mind.  But my heart was pure and I wanted to court someone and build a beautiful life with her. 

God had no part in my life.  I was angry.  Hurt.  And had no one to talk to. 

College was about drinking.  From the time I showed up, almost until the end, alcohol was in my hands.  My heartache.  I was saving myself for marriage.  I thought I had found someone – but that ended very badly my sophomore year in college.  More booze.  Nothing could stop the 24×7 images of pain except alcohol.  I also found that throwing myself into things took my mind off of the bad.  I got involved in a relationship I had no business being in, and she treated me like gold, but I was dark inside from the years of trying to be everything for someone.  I had no love to give.  And I hurt her, which then created more loops that never stopped playing. 

All of this is to say that as an atheist, I could not make sense of the pain in the world, and doing things took my mind off of stuff.  When college ended, I stopped boozing except weekends.  I was so shy, I could not talk to a woman without drinking.  My ADHD/OCD mind would find 85 different ways she would hurt me before I opened my mouth, so I avoided the pain.  Alcohol stopped that.  The first time I ever had a first date with someone where I wasn’t pretty drunk when asking her out may have been 26 or 27 years old.  I had zero problem with the ladies, I just needed to stop my mind for a bit to get out of my head. 

Atheism then had me focus on “Earthly Success and Legacy” above.  With dating, it seemed the only value I may have to any woman was what money I earned or would earn.  It worked.  But it made me feel empty and hollow inside.  I pined for the Rockwell Christmas with the beautiful wife and 5 kids hugging you, a life filled with love. 

My life instead became and endless hamster wheel of chasing things, status, money.  If I just did this one more thing for her, she would like me.  You get her the thing, and 5 minutes later, it was “what else can you do for me”. 

I was filled with love, and the life of an atheist is endlessly chasing things to try to win love from someone.  It may be fleeting for 5 minutes where you feel the affection, and then the tone then goes to “what else can you do for me?”

This is the life I believe most secular people are living.  It’s a hollow existence because you can never quench that thirst someone has that covets what other people have.  I did a lot of what I did in my career for the women and children in my life.  Mostly to my own detriment. 

I reached a point where I was like, “I’m done”. 

And when that happened, suddenly, I started seeing my little boy hug me for the first time.  My wife happy with ME for the first time.  I’m sure they loved me, but I felt like my own existence in life was to somehow try and get people things to make them happy. 

But something happened.  Something profound. 

As I started reading the bible after Charlie Kirk’s death, I started to want to learn more.  I would walk the dog and listen to it, and it made me feel a bit more “whole”.  I had not ever read much of the bible.  And below, I want to try and tell people what resonated with me. 

And for you religious people out there, I want to try and help you actually get through to people like me.  What works, and what doesn’t. 

Organized religion

My other problem with God was organized religion. My youngest memories of pre-school I wrote in a previous post, but I just remember a lot of “why am I here.  Why are they telling me to obey.  Why should I obey.  Why are these people singing these god awful songs.

Why????

None of the people were able to reach me.  None of them started with the WHY.  They just start quoting scripture, which might impress people in the church.  To an outsider, you seem like a crazy person.  You hold a book that is 2000 years old, then you tell me my brother is going to hell because he is gay, then tell me to pray with them. 

Hold on.  If God’s plan is perfect, and everyone is meant to be, and God loves everyone, why is my brother going to Hell? 

The first problem organized religion has is that it comes off as scare tactics.  Do all of this, or you are going to Hell.  Ummm…OK chief.  You do you. 

But someone like me needed the WHY.  Not scare tactics.  I needed a HOOK.  I needed the hook.  With reading (listening) to Matthew a few weeks ago, it was the first time I had actually understood what the hell “He is Risen” means.  You see it on billboards and it just looks like a grammar error.  I had learned growing up the tomb was empty.  But I never knew there were a lot of witnesses after he was resurrected.  I just thought all they had was the Shroud of Turin.  I would make fun of “Zombie Jesus”.  As a small child, I just thought this was another Santa Claus thing, but I had no education about many witnesses seeing him!!  This sort of changed my understanding of things. 

I also had to memorize the books of the bible.  To this day, I only remember a few in order.  But I didn’t know how the bible was constructed.  My now 17 year old son is being raised 25 mins away from me with his mother who is religious and his step father who is also very religious.  For me, I saw Christianity as an ally, so I had zero issues with it, and I equivocated people of the cloth as “good people”.  I just had my own score to settle with God first. 

But the organized religion aspect then had people chanting.  Not questioning.  Being obedient.  And no one could tell me why.  “It’s God’s plan” is not exactly a dissertation.  10 commandments?  Cool.  Got it.  7 deadly sins? OK cool. 

But organized religion failed me because it wasn’t an education.  It was an indoctrination I sniffed out early and wanted no part of it.   

You got these people that come to my house and door knock.  In today’s day and age, if I don’t know you are coming, I am not answering the fucking door, period.  Likewise, you have the purest of intentions, but I am in the middle of eating wings and you want to try and save me.  Read the room dude.

I believe organized religion is widely failing in the US because:

  1. You have no idea how to talk to an atheist without sounding “preachy”.
  2. You don’t have a good explanation for any question I will ask you, like “what proof does god exist”
  3. I see you as needing more people to grow your congregation because you need money
  4. I see it as inauthentic because you are trying to sell me a product and you have no idea what I might need. 
  5. Culturally, from Hollywood to the music industry – everything is secular.  It’s not “cool” to drink Jesus Juice
  6. “Born again” people can be seen as weird and running from a life of sin
  7. There’s no “process” for someone like me to look into a church without feeling like I have to sign a 40 year contract. 
  8. I was extremely uncomfortable with having to stand and hug/shake the hand of my neighbor.  Maybe I have a touch of the ‘tism but I need personal space
  9. I have severe, severe social anxiety because of my OCD/ADHD.  If you are talking to me, I am thinking of 30 ways to respond and then trying to anticipate your reaction to each and then thinking about what I would say, and what you would say to each of them.  It’s mentally exhausting to meet NEW people without booze.  In my professional life, it’s much easier, but in my personal life it can be petrifying.  So I am terrified of walking into a church with 100 people who may try and talk to me.  I wanted to blend in. 

How people like me want to find YOU

With going on this spiritual walkabout, I still do not believe in “God” like you might.  In an earlier part of this, I spent 25 years pondering our existence in the physical realm, and in late December, around Christmas, was when the paper I was writing found evidence of a creator.  IF my model of the universe is true, it means there is a creator.  It may not be what you think of God.  With this, Jesus could have been a Sim with added powers to then create a moral fabric for this simulated reality.  I don’t know, but for the first time in my entire life – I PERSONALLY found evidence of a deity.  I submitted the paper – without any of the math, to show the MODEL and ask people who like to do math with letters to try and support or deny my findings.  Long story short, when I pieced together what gravity actually was, it then opened up everything else.  You all think gravity is this pulling force.  It is not.  It is a netting of spacetime with the boson particles that interact with it.  And, the more densely the boson particles are (mass), the more it distorts the spacetime netting.  This is why volume doesn’t bend the spacetime but mass does.

What religious people tend to do is to go straight to the existence of a deity, and cannot find that middle ground with someone like me. 

Step 1: posit that no one knows how the universe began.  Atheists point to the “big bang” but the hole in that theory is “no one knows where the stuff came from”.  You then say, “most religions feel there was a creator, and we call our creator God.  Many things in the bible are hyperbole or metaphor, but the big takeway that many can get from it is to look at ancient wisdom passed down in Proverbs which gave way to the moral fabric of the United States during its formation and is still prevalent today”. 

Why this works – you do not start with preaching or telling me there is a God.  You don’t start with Jesus.  You say WHY is because it can help society live a certain way.  Try reading a few verses starting around Chapter 9, and you can see some good nuggets in there.

Step 2: Take the King James version and throw it in the trash can.

Why this works – While I enjoyed reading 17th century English poetry in high school, I could not read Shakespeare.  Many revered him!  I still remember “Iambic pentameter”.  But you might as well have scribbled it in cuneiform.  I could not understand it to save my life.  The words of old English also needed a ton of context, and nouns then didn’t mean what nouns meant then.  Do NOT use that old version because – THEE and THY and all of that stuff sounds preachy.  And, people like me can’t read it. 

Step 3: Use the ESV version with a bible app

Why this works – When I started with John, I actually understood the story.  I was walking my dog and some voice was reading it and I understood what was going on.  WHOA!  Wait.  This happened?  I actually understood the events. 

Step 4: Explain how the bible is setup

Why this works – I thought like any book, you have to read from the beginning to the end or else you would not understand what was going on.  I had no idea how this was setup, and how proverbs was written by a man.  And the beginning of the new testament was written by them as what happened.  No idea.  My 17 year old gave me this, and this should be on every poster all of you have.

 

Step 5: have a process in place for people like me to take the first step

Why this works – above, I mentioned about the social anxiety.  Have you ever wanted to go furniture shopping just to look, and 3 seconds after you are in the door you are attacked by a salesperson?  You just want to look around and now these people are hovering around you.  Their job is to try and sell you something.  But you just want to look and see what there is there you may have interest in.  I feel like if anyone just walked into a church, suddenly they have this huge commitment. 

I went to a website recently for a church, and I saw a form with how to reach out to the pastor.  I left a message.  I would perhaps like to maybe visit a church and have like a one hour conversation.  I want to know more.  I don’t want you to sell me on your church.  I want to just know what you do.  How do you feel about my brother being gay?  What if I just want to come here and there because my kid sports stuff is all over the place?  What services do you offer those in need?   

Community

I have done well for myself, and often I want to share my good fortune with others.  But most of my income has gone to acquiring “things” to make people happy.  It’s fleeting.  Today, my 5 year old has more toys than anyone.  I grew up with nothing, so I wanted to spoil him rotten.  But he is now at times an entitled spoiled brat.  I have now dialed back the toys, and he sometimes now thinks he did something wrong. 

I remember every year my mom would get toys to donate to children at the church.  My mom was also very religious, and one of our big fights in our lives was when I was 18 and there was some sort of religious graduation ceremony for my HS in a local church.  I told my mom I didn’t want to go, as I was a staunch atheist, and showing up to that – to me – felt like I would be a hypocrite.  She asked me to do it for her.  Then for her parents.  I declined.  We got very heated, and this was one part of organized religion I didn’t like – ritual.  But what I did admire was when people donated things – toys, canned goods, and even their labor to help others in need.

I have become jaded about “those in need” mostly due to drug addiction and theft in this country – as the amount of scamming others is unprecedented.  The amount of people who are not “upright” and contributing to society – is real.  So for decades, I have looked at people in two categories – those who fell on hard times, and those who misrepresent themselves to acquire from others under false pretenses.  I have written a facebook post which talks about hard times coming due to AI, and I have a feeling a lot of people are going to have to get off of welfare and disability in order to eat.  I believe we need much stronger controls of our welfare systems.  I have always felt this, so people do not make a lifestyle grifting.

I lived in an inner city for 6 years of my life, and seeing the young women with 3-4-5 children, no father to be found.  They had a lifestyle of government checks, and if the father was around and married her, she would lose the checks.   We need to find better ways to support families than government handouts. 

And hence, we come back to local community and the church.

I also grew up near the Amish.  While they may have their flaws, everyone around them admires their work ethic.  You cannot find fat Amish people – because they are working with their hands, they eat real food, and they live by a code given in the Bible.  They are all physically fit.  Now also think about some traits about them.  They don’t covet what you have.  They all dress in similar outfits that are hand made – they do not live on brand names.  The women are dressed modestly, and no skin is really shown in public.  They have lots of kids.  They work the farms.  They build barns together.  They take care of animals.  None of us really have any form of relationship with them.  They come into our communities and work, and sometimes used to stop in Burger King when I worked there for some food.  But none of them ever struck up a conversation.  Their community is good neighbors.  This model could be used by many types of religions, so everyone lives in harmony.  The one thing they do not use is modern conveniences.  Think about how this hardship hasn’t made them soft. 

At this stage of my life now, I am wanting to embrace community, and a funny thing started.  In the last few months, I have started to talk to my neighbors a lot more now.  At my kids’ games, I’m striking up more conversations with other parents.  I never did any of this.  My social anxiety would trigger in and I would worry they would reject my conversation and ignore me.  Instead, I’m met with smiles.  I feel joy to connect.  I want to know about them.  I want nothing from them but to give them a friendly face, and I have been receiving kind smiles in return. 

I feel like I have a good clay to sculpt at this point.  I wish to stay very close to my house for finding a church, as I want to help people directly in my community.  I think I am going to stay UCC because they were friendly to the gay community.   It is important to me to not surround myself with people who feel my brother is going to burn in Hell.  It is a known entity to me.  So for me, I don’t want high levels of ritual like the catholics, and I don’t want strict adherence to the bible like you might think of as a far right conservative from the deep south.  But I am becoming more spiritual also in the sense where I felt a connection to other forms of Christianity in the sense that they are all trying to live by a code and do right.  What I am feeling with this sense, is a massive burden being lifted from me. 

My whole life, I have been this staunch atheist and doing what I did best – deflect and use biting humor.  People would try to talk to me, to reach their hand out to me, and I would shut them down and mutter something about sleeping in on Sundays or Zombie Jesus.  I didn’t want to tell them the hate I had in me for some omnipotent being who was supposed to be so great that he killed little children as part of his plan.  The pain I had inside, I could not express – it was bottled up.  I have tried to talk about it with my wife recently and I get a half a sentence out and I start losing it.  I have been wound so tight with pain and agony that it is very difficult to unwind this slowly. 

I was mowing the lawn the other day, and I was at the side of my house and I had a connect the dot moment.  John.  John the Baptist.  Being baptized.  But then the “born again” people who are dunked and feel this joy – it was at THAT moment, it hit me, the water, the ritual, it washed away and cleansed you to allow you to start again and let that all behind. 

Whoa. 

One problem someone like me has is the amount of sin I have done – and many of us atheists have done, have been in seeking something to make them whole that is missing.  I found it in the last 2 weeks at the home front.  It just hit me like a wave.  A bus ran me over, and I felt “whole”.  It was the first time in my life I felt love reciprocated in a manner in which I have felt I have given.  At that moment that I felt that love, I also felt I didn’t deserve it.  I felt inadequate.  Like past sins did not qualify me to feel this love I felt from my family.  I wept.  And in my heart, I wanted to be the man they needed in their lives. 

All of this has been a gradual move that is picking up steam.  And when I have read proverbs – during this time and right after, I felt like this was how I felt inside – how I felt I wanted to be pure of heart to God, or to some Creator, and my intent was pure with Him.  Words you can tell others – those words can never match how you feel, and too many people have had lips of a serpent to mislead others.  But how I FELT – was a direct connection with some being that I was having a conversation where I was going to be pure of heart to Him, and with this, He would know my heart.  I would not need to use words to anyone, He would know how I was feeling.  He would know deep inside my intent. 

It started to feel good to reconcile that ledger.  I had wanted this feeling of love my whole life, and the absolute moment I felt this love, I needed to have a deep conversation to fight to keep this love in my family and in my heart. 

Atheism

 With this last section here, I wanted to present that infographic from above to show how modern culture has promoted atheism.  How skin was everywhere in movies and music.  How our culture has eroded and skin and lust and greed have been the bottomless pit of seeking this love in Western Culture now.  Atheism in a sense is trying to build a parallel moral structure that uses the apparatus of the state to usurp the power of the church.  We had tried to live good and wholesome lives, but when you don’t have that relationship with a Creator internally – you are just white knuckling life day to day being a good person.  But what I felt recently was not alone -I felt that I was having an internal conversation with the Creator. 

When I saw people celebrating Charlie Kirk’s death, I wasn’t seeing what I consider atheists.  It felt anti-Christian.  Atheism just has an absence of a lot of God-type of stuff. What I saw were celebrations that seemed to be what perhaps many wood consider evil.  The devil.  I felt these people were not Godless humans.  They worshipped the state, and state control of your lives.  It began to start to have me see progressives as those promoting anti-Chistian values.  I didn’t know a massive amount about Kirk before his death.  I considered him an ally.  I considered him a model human being.  But when I started to look at his life and how he lived and how he tried to talk to others to find middle ground, I started seeing him months later like walking in the path of Jesus, like a disciple.  And anti-Christian rhetoric all over TV using false witness against him – it started a path of radicalization against those who bore false witness.  These people calling people like Trump and Kirk Nazis started to show me who they were in their soul.  These were not “good atheists”.  They were filled with hate and rage.  And they declared war on Christians. 

As an atheist, I sided with the Christians over the anti-Christians.  I could clearly see that their language was used to rally people to murder and kill on their behalf.  It started to feel – in the only way I could feel – like it was a form of anti-God, or perhaps, this is what the bible really means when they talk about the devil. 

Then you see how this religion of the state – has taken society and told them that unless a man is 6-6-6, he is not worthy of you.  He told you that you are beautiful at 300 pounds and your slovenly ways are healthy.  The state has poisoned peoples’ minds using false rhetoric to then tell women it’s ok to sleep with 300 men, have 8 kids out of wedlock, and steal money from people who have been upright and productive and living their lives in the paths of Jesus. 

As I am slowly moving away from atheism, I am seeing how countries in the middle east don’t want any part of our modern Western values.  They don’t hate us for our freedom, they don’t want that form of evil spread to them.  I think in a lot of the middle east, you see Christians living in peace with Muslims.  I think most muslims in this world are wonderful and decent people, they just have a different moral code.  I see them like the Amish – I respect their differences from me.  I respect they want their women to dress more modest.  I understand they want to grow their flavor of faith just as Christians do. 

The funny thing is, in the end here, I believe the final battle in the 4th turning is going to be Christians, Jews, and Muslims combined to take down a form of the devil which has been the State. 

I believe we must reduce the power of the federal government.  I believe we must use our efforts to remove the “false testimony” of the State meant to take the moral fabric away from the religions of Abraham.  I believe the State needs to demonize Muslims – which happened after 9/11.  I believe the State needs to rally their people against the Jews – post Oct 7th.  And for their final battle, they have been trying to take power from the Christians for decades, a little at a time.  During COVID, this State apparatus told churches they must close, but allowed Black Lives Matter rallies.  The STATE forced small businesses to close, to force closure of churches – but allowed big corporations to operate and profit. 

We see how credit card companies are massively profitable charging people 25-30% to enslave them.  But the ultimate weapon to keep this going?  Coveting.  For the State to get power, it needs:

  1. Money – more taxes, which needs more commerce
  2. To wipe out forces that tell people to live modestly and without debt
  3. To demonize religions through cultural weapons like movies and TV shows

However, the First amendment in this state allows for lack of state intervention in religion.  The second amendment protects the first.  So the State tries to then show you that guns are bad – while at the same time poisoning you with lies through the news.  “Mass shooting” deaths last year were like 400, but at the same time, the open borders led to perhaps 300,000 people dying of drug overdoses.  The try to call sick child predators “minor attracted people” to normalize this in society at the exact same time no one has been prosecuted for the events of Epstein Island – at the SAME time they let 20 million people over the border while losing 300,000 unaccompanied children into the system. 

I am seeing demonic forces by “The State”.  We are now seeing the hundreds of billions in corruption.  These States run by Progressives are stealing taxpayer money to enrich themselves and distribute their winnings across their State people to continue to open more and more franchises.

I believe in my heart that Trump may have been like me – someone who was atheist and allied himself with Christians.  I believe when he was older, he started to see what I’m seeing.  I believe he picked up the bible like me – and not knowing “First Corinthians” and saying “one corinthians” he revealed the life of a billionaire seeking his truth – not being able to walk amongst the people to go to church because so many people want him dead. 

The poison of modern culture is coveting. 

The hope of Christianity is filling every void you have, so you need nothing else but love. 

This is your culture war. 

And good atheists should ally themselves with Christians/Muslim/Jews against whatever the fuck that Satanic cult of the Marxist progressives are. 

Most of my policy arguments with the left have been to try and reason with traditional liberal democrats who may be “good atheists” and have lived in peace with Christians for a long time.  I try to appeal on policy – not so they vote like me, but so they can expel the cancer from their party in elections. 

I have yet to read Revelations, but I am feeling culture is coming to a head.  My next chapter focuses more on modern culture with TV, movies, and music – and how it has pushed us toward the State and away from traditional values.  Family is the core of all existence, and the State is mostly anti-family.  How many progressives do you see who CHOOSE not to have a family?  Why? Because if you have a family, you start to understand Christianity a hell of a lot more. 

When I talk of “The State” – this is the unelected “deep state” who is a monster who needs to keep growing – why? Look at the bottom right of my infographic.  There is no amount of money that is ever enough for someone who covets.  And because of this – they weaponize people to take wealth from others, to serve themselves.  “The rich are evil” means they want to create wealth taxes – and once you understand “The Learing Center” was created on this premise, you have to start looking at wealth differently. 

Ask yourself which Billionaires use their wealth to share with others to help those in need, and ask yourself which billionaires have a $100 million yacht and 40 smoking hot women on it partying. 

Let me give you examples….

Elon Musk – worth $400 billion.  He doesn’t own a fucking home.  He has no yacht.  His “wealth” is all in stock.  His wealth is then used to create other companies to serve man. 

  • Electric cars – let’s try and be better stewards of the environment
  • Solar city – let’s try and use the power of the sun to power our cities
  • The Boring company – let’s put traffic underground so we can have parks above ground
  • Twitter – The State is censoring us and taking away the first amendment.  Let’s let everyone talk and have community notes be the way communication is checked.  Not the government
  • Neuralink.  Helps people who lost the ability to speak or move then do so
  • SpaceX – let’s try to explore the stars
  • OpenAI/Grok – let’s find more efficient ways of doing things and teach humanity

Donald Trump

  • Only president to reduce his net worth when in office, lost approximately one billion dollars from the relentless fake Russian news against him, put on him by the state.  They tried to seize $500m from him for refinancing a property where there was no victim and the banks are the ones who gave the valuation and were paid back early
  • Endless stories going back 50 years of him helping people in need.  HE doesn’t talk about it.  THEY do.  For thousands of people, Trump has saved their lives.
  • Trump was a major celebrity revered within the black community until he won the presidential nomination from the republican party.  He was then called racist with absolutely no foundation.  It deeply hurt him to be called all of these names, and he decided to fight the machine that was poisoning Americans.  THEY FOUGHT BACK. 
  • Trump is in the Epstein files for being the one who dimed out Epstein, got him arrested, and then was the person who fought to get all Epstein files released.  Not a peep of this during the Biden admin.  Dem judges fought Trump tooth and nail over months for him to be able to release the docs. 

Bill Gates

  • Epstein Island.  Has done a lot of good with the Gates Foundation, but also bought up tons of farmland all around the country, and did a Ted Talk on the next coronavirus in 2016.  As Epstein was in jail, the COVID coronavirus was released from Wuhan, which the NHS funded via Anthony Fauci.  During this time, mail in ballots happened which gave Biden nearly 20 million more votes than any Dem before or since. 
  • Jeff Bezos.  Made hundreds of billions of dollars with Amazon when COVID shut everything down and people weren’t allowed to leave their homes.  Bought the Washington Post to focus relentless energy on Anti-Trump propaganda.  Has giant yachts everywhere and leads a playboy lifestyle with his new wife.  Not known for philanthropy.  Could be a great guy – but this is the billionaire class that is profiting from The State – whereas the State tried to take all of Trump’s wealth and put him in jail for the rest of his life. 

Warren Buffet

  • Lived in the same modest house in Omaha with his wife since the 1960s. 
  • Vowed to not give any of his wealth to his children and wanted to give it all away

So ask yourself – is the billionaire class bad, or just some billionaires the State has told you are evil Nazis?  Who is telling you that?  The news – partially owned by Bezos et al – billionaires.  Who is paying for this news?  Pharm companies that made $100 billion in profit during COVID. 

If you follow where the money flows, it helps you understand who is trying to serve mankind versus who is serving themselves. 

I believe atheists/agnostics must soon choose sides.  Those who are trying to serve their fellow man, or those who are trying to serve themselves?

Ask yourself how Ilhan Omar went from a net worth of -$50,000 before Congress to $30,000,000 now on her disclosure forms? Ask about the winery that never existed.  She was part of the bill that led to fellow Somalis raking in $18 billion of taxpayer money in Minnesota.  Ask yourself where the $100 billion in CA went to build high speed rail, when not even 1 mile of track was ever built – and during that time frame, China put HSR all over their entire country. 

Follow the money. 

This begins your journey.