I have written a lot over the last week or two here and never posted. I have a lot of writings in the hopper that never make it to the mainstream. This one I am putting out there because I have been an atheist my whole life – and since Charlie Kirk, I have softened my stance a lot, dove in deeper to my spirituality, and started reading the bible. At this point I think I have like 8 parts of this written and it may make a good book someday. For now, I want to release this in parts because this writing started to be a short book as opposed to a blog post.
I debate. I love it. Many think I’m just argumentative, which I can be. But I need to understand the universe. The world. People. I have a DEEP need. And when I talk about subjects with people, I generally want to know how you think. The world has been turned upside down politically since 2016, and with this, the behavior I have seen by a small group of people fomenting hate has been extraordinarily hateful. When Kirk was murdered, I took to Twitter like most. And what happened put me into a deeply depressive state for maybe a week. Hundreds of thousands of people were celebrating his death. I could not wrap my arms around the evil I was seeing. What was I missing about Kirk? I watched a good amount of his videos and clips – but I never really called myself a Charlie Kirk fanboy.
All of these people calling him horrible names. Laughing. Celebrating. It hit me really hard. I have been an atheist my whole life, but considered myself an ally to Christianity, grew up in a Christian family, and had most of my friends as Christians.
My big issue my whole life has been I could not find evidence God exists. Well, I did what I did. I spent 25 years studying this. And I believe I came to a working model to understand how the universe was created. My atheist brain would spout “Big Bang!” See! Evidence of no God. But something started bothering me the more I pondered it. What CAUSED the big bang? I believe I now worked that out, and with this – I believe it is evidence of a creator. You may call it God and worship it. But I feel this is evidence of a creator, but not like you would think. I posted the paper below that I submitted to Physics Essays in January. So…FIRST!
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Over Christmas, I used AI to help me understand what I saw in my mind that may prove the existence of a creator. I enlisted Chat GPT to take my crude drawings from 2009 as well as a video I made of a rig to analyze everything I’m thinking. Chat was able to tell me what I was seeing – and with this, helped me map parts of what I was thinking to Einstein, Fermi, etc. Parts of what I drew in 2008 with a “gravity particle” later turned out to be the Higgs Boson which I had no idea what it was until years later with the hadron collider. In my mind I was able to see gravitational distortions, and then also applied thermodynamics to the concept of the big bang. Of interest, Chat was able to tell me all of what had been discovered, which I obviously credited to them, but my model had unique contributions which helped explain dark matter and dark energy. Motion and kinetics driven by heat, cold, radiation – which then explained pockets of dark energy. My model also explained how relativity breaks down at black holes. What I did not have was the math.
My paper posited a model, and asked those people far smarter than myself to find the math to support the model. I visually demonstrated HOW it worked – and my paper was a call for them to justify the WHY it worked – using math.
Overall, what I posited was this….
While I massively agreed with the Big Bang – and felt Hawking and all of them were right, what that model doesn’t talk about is “where all of the stuff comes from”. When you look at things like stars, you know that gravity and pressure consume the hydrogen via fusion. The pressure creates the fusion and BAM – explosions. But when you look at black holes and the event horizon, you start to understand how atoms start to be compressed to the point that the space between the electrons and protons is massively compressed. Gravitational forces are so intense they overwhelm the repelling forces that electrons and protons have. Meaning, the atom itself is compressed in size and that heat is enormous. This heat causes radiation as us lay people see heat. Or gamma rays or whatever other radiation I never heard of.
But when you are talking about this compression, it’s not at the level where hydrogen then combines and forms helium. Rather, imagine the mass of 1 billion of these suns compressed to perhaps the size of a small city. This compression may be so intense that it suppresses the fusion explosions. We store them up for when de-compression happens. Then we get lots of fun. This is essentially battery stored energy via compression. When you uncork the bottle, nothing good happens.
When you start to understand gravitational distortion, this then becomes this giant “shell” around the black hole, and if something crosses this boundary, gravity is so intense, nothing can escape it. It is my belief what radiation we see from the black hole is the radiation emitted from this “shell” of gravity as compression begins.
Longer story short, all of these atoms are compressed to a tiny fraction of the size they are in their natural state. We understand that a supernova is a massive explosion when the fuel that a star uses is consumed. This is how heavy elements like gold get sent to the earth. One way.
But now imagine these suns getting eaten up and torn apart – it’s called “spaghettification” and they talk about the information paradox with this. Big picture here is if you can see a large star doing a supernova, what happens when you have super massive black holes run out of their fuel?
Our galaxy, and many other galaxies spin like you are seeing a hurricane. Or tornado. Or flushing the toilet. Pressure and vacuum. Part of my thesis then said that at the center of these galaxies are black holes – and this turns out to be true. What you are seeing with galaxies are consolidation of mass. First, mass in space combines in on itself because the higgs boson particles act as “gravity particles” and these more or less distort the netting or fabric of the universe.
These distortions then have particles combining.
This is visually how these distortions look as particles of mass “fall towards each other” as the distortion then has exterior pressures pushing them together. What you think of a gravitational attraction is two entities actually falling towards each other due to pressure differences with the netting. There is no “gravitational pull”. It is lattice distortions pushing you together like how you squeeze toothpaste out of the tube. When there is nothing between them, this is why they accelerate towards each other. Like on earth, you fall at 9.8 m^2.
Gravity is nothing more than lattice distortion. We LOOK at things like Jupiter and think of Archimedes principle of displacing water to find mass, but objects of like size may have different densities. Hence water displacement is based on volume, not mass. However, if you think of density in terms of Higgs Boson particles, you then can see how a beach ball made of lead that has the same volume of a beach ball that is empty and filled with air, may distort water the same – but if you then used the higgs boson particle count over area, you could see that gravitationally, the beach ball made of lead would pull a beach ball closer to it in space.
Let me point out that I believe the Higgs Boson particle is what is distorting the lattice. Mass is the measurement of these particles.
Then you can also think about how time is relative to mass and speed. While this may break your brain, the Twin paradox talks about some of this. Furthermore, you can refer to interstellar to talk about the concept of time regarding mass. If the mass of the universe is condensed to a single point. Time as we know it stops. But time is rather a function of cycles. What we perceive as time is relative to our speed and mass in the universe.
Bigger picture then is that when stars burn out. When heat doesn’t exist – you have thermodynamics which then contract. It can pull things back together.
To me, these regions near absolute zero act differently with the lattice structure than a black hole. While black holes may suck you in due to lattice distortion – near absolute zero areas may also contract.
If our universe is expanding – based on an explosion – and all of the “stuff” that was condensed inside of this are now flung at faster the speed of light – Newtons law says it would keep going forever. However, this could be true until you have the lattice structure pulling objects back. The coldness between the depths of space and the center of where it all began starts doing what thermodynamics does. Contract. Heat is what expanded the lattice structure, and absolute zero, or near that, is what collapses it.
The acceleration outward is the tube of toothpaste pushing you out the lattice structure with nothing to stop you.
If so, and if the universe is 30 billion years old, this is time as we understand it as we measure trips around the sun. However, if I’m right and the “netting” will eventually pull everything back – once fuel is exhausted and everything has accelerated as far as possible, there’s no longer pressure on the lattice pushing you and acceleration slows and stops.
You will start to see galaxies pulled back. They say we are accelerating away from the big bang. Cool. What happens in another 100 billions years when all of the black holes have consumed all of their fuel? Do they explode? Or rather could these black holes eventually consume the stars in their orbits? As more suns fall into the black holes, the “shell” grows in size. More and more stars are pulled in. The “shell” grows in size. Until – neighboring galaxies touch each others’ shell and they start pulling themselves towards each other. What happens when black holes collide?
Long story short here is that at some future point. 5 billion. 50 billion. 200 trillion years from now the universe hits a point where the forward motion of a galaxy has no stars it can see. Light is so far apart. The coldness and blackness between them is so severe. Maybe then black holes explode and particles are strewn about. And some of those particles are aimed in the direction of the center of the universe. And as this happens all throughout the universe – the particles all directed at the center start to converge. But their motion now is towards the center of the universe.
Particles that were shot the opposite way of the center of the universe that have began amassing are pulled in towards the center of the universe by larger masses. Suddenly, momentum of mass goes towards the center of the universe.
As more bodies collapse, the masses heading towards the center increase. The netting of the universe starts to collapse in on itself. The pressure on the netting then pushes you towards the center of the universe as your momentum is carrying you there.
While these particles are collapsing, they again create suns – but these suns are moving towards the center, and are accelerating. And objects are falling into them as they gain speed towards the center.
And more and more of these stars start moving at near light speed towards the center of the universe. This center now more or less is a super massive – SUPER massive black hole which is gobbling up all mass that hits it. The “shell” begins to increase so large that the “shell” starts to become the size of the universe and all matter within it is sucked back into the center. Everything is “falling” into the giant mass as the lattice is distorted in between itself and the super massive object.
At the end of this and when the last particle has hit the center, THIS is when the big bang happens. We have seen this on much smaller scales with the supernova.
And time is the cycle.
What we PERCEIVE as time with trips around the sun is relative to our perception.
If this is true, the question then is….how many times has the big bang happened?
But the bigger question I had a problem with the big bang theory? Who made the stuff?
Root cause. What caused the big bang? Look at what happens when a supernova happens. It collapses in on itself – and then explodes. But the stuff that was a star came from somewhere to then cause the explosion.
This suggests that each iteration of the big bang could be 100 billion years. Or 900 trillion years. We don’t know this. This is time relative to US. But if you can think about how rapidly the expansion of the big bang happened, as objects get further away from each other, time slows. We know this to be true with absolute zero. The truth, as I see it, is absolute zero is the boundary of our universe, and as objects move into that area, energy (kinetic) exists and thus time starts there. And as objects are pulled back out of there and are so far away, time (as we know it) stops.
Meaning – it is very possible that as quickly as the big bang happened – the slowing of the expansion of the universe to the point it reverse may be what we perceive as almost infinite time, and as the contraction happens, the cycle is closer to completing and time “speeds up” as we see it. So as quickly as mass emerged from it, that is how at the end the energy/and mass will be consumed by it.
Hence, the big bang.
But the stuff.
Where did it come from?
If you think about our universe in cycle times, in programming we may call this iterative. Cycles. Refresh.
Consider for a second that God does exist. In this particular case, I am thinking that God is a programmer of sorts. And….this is a CREATOR.
So you may use the term God. What if we are in a form of simulation and God is a CREATOR. Genesis had God create everything in a few days. That’s about how long it took me to build my automated news site with AI.
To fully understand my concept, watch the movie “The 13th floor”. We may be sims inside someone else’s creation.
Just like the entire life of a fruit fly may be a few days to us, the cycle of the universe to them could be an automated simulation done in a second to them.
This starts to put time into perspective of cycles and iterations rather than how we measure time by going around the sun. The Twin paradox breaks your mind with time – and astronauts – when they come back, have time diffferentials with us on earth.
What this suggests is that there is a creator. There is no other explanation. If you just accept the Big Bang, as is, then where did the stuff come from? Thus, if you accept the big bag, I posit there is a Great Contraction and with this – it could have happened quadrillions of times.
Because when you start understanding this at some crazy levels, time is infinite. There was no beginning. There is no end. There’s another cycle.
Another iteration.
The evidence here is that an atheist may point to the Big Bang rather than a dude in a white beard with a scepter making the earth. But if they accept the Big Bang – they need to accept that the Great Contraction also happens. And they still can’t explain the stuff. The evidence here suggests a BEING of some sort CREATED this universe. Religious people call him God and worship him. Logic people like me may see him as a programmer of sorts observing the simulation. And what happens to us may be a form of psychological experimentation to build models of humans in AI .
Where does that leave us?
If there was a creator, and they are observing us, perhaps we reasoned that those of us who act the best may have their traits and characteristics passed down to future generations within the AI. Perhaps we created the bible and other books to try and reason about the creation. And perhaps these great thinkers assigned “God” this position. If it is a programmer, would he or she or it be amused by people worshipping it?
Does God talk to any of us in the simulation? Could it be possible that Jesus was part of the programming to give us moral and societal structure? Could his healing of people been the evidence granted to a super admin to demonstrate that a deity does exist? Could he being the son of God be an actual creation by the deity/programmer to give us structure and rules for the simulation?
While I am not CERTAIN “God” as you understand it exists. But this presents evidence of a creator. I submitted the paper so the math guys can do their thing and disprove or affirm it. If affirmed, the origin of “stuff” is not related to “when” but “who”.
My study of the bible is trying to understand a better way to live to perhaps unburden me from lots of emotional pain. IT doesn’t mean I was be singing praise to a god next week. What it does is help me logically understand our beginnings. For me, that is enough to then start to think of God as a creator and not a deity to worship. Perhaps Jesus was a conduit for the creator? Maybe he was a sim given abilities to repair sims to demonstrate that there is a creator? Perhaps humans did what they always do, and worship something that is beyond their comprehension? Thousands of years after Ra and mocking others for polytheism, it is quite possible there is a creator, but that creator has no interest in you worshipping it.
The problem with any religion is fanaticism and certainty. So my goal with studying this is to try to improve myself using wisdom passed down for thousands of years, and I wish to skip over the worship part of this for now.
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